Oh the glamour…

EA274A21-A716-429D-A9AB-0EBAA31560DFGosh I could have really done with having another week off!! No time off now until our little madam arrives!! I really can’t wait anymore, A) so I’m no longer pregnant and B) so we can meet her!! Everyday we talk about what she’s going to look like and how she’s going to be, etc. I’m getting nervous about labour now though! I think all that talk from the antenatal class has finally caught up with me! Bit bloody late for worrying now though haha!! At least once I’ve done it- I never have to do it ever again!!! It’s funny in a way though how quick it all has actually gone- it feels like a long time at the moment but in reality, it’s quite a short period of time to create a life isn’t it! I had a great week off last week though and weekend was brilliant as got to go to one of my good friends baby shower! She’s 5 weeks ahead of me but her baby boy could be here in the next week! My daughter will already have a good friend there!! I know about another 10 people since who are pregnant now!!! Seems we’ve all been at it around the same time hahaha! Majority of people are having boys that I know so far, I’m the only one having a girl! 

So pregnancy symptoms this week- tiredness, nose bleeds, sciatica, acid reflux, bad back….I’ve also been getting really painful feelings in my belly and downstairs! The other night I had bad period type pain for about an hour and I’ve actually got it a bit this morning! Shooting pains in your bits isn’t pleasant either!! Currently sat here jumping out my skin whilst it’s happening lol! I’ve even had little pains like that in my nipples which fucking hurts! Hope it’s a sign she’s coming sooner rather than later!!! I’ve got a swiss ball now though so I’ve been using that a bit which helps my back a bit and I’m hoping will get little one down a bit more! I can’t believe how tired I’m getting now though, but haven’t been sleeping great, just find everything so uncomfortable and I hate trying to turn over in the night! Acid reflux seems to be really bad at night and for some reason, I’m back to vomiting everywhere when I brush my teeth!! Honest to god I cannot  wait for the day I wake up without feeling like a dragon or being sick! Nose bleeds are probably the worst thing however! I woke up the other morning with it everywhere. The taste of metal from all the iron in my blood as well is disgusting, I feel like I’ve been sucking on a penny! This also makes me feel sick as you can imagine! Hard when people ask you what you want to eat when all you can taste is metal and your chest feels on fire! Sciatica is mainly bad at night too but my back feels worse. That deep freeze gel is pretty good though and helps. Wish it would help my ankle though but just have to try and rest it as much as I can. Oh I’ve also forgot to mention in this blog, bloody baby brain, I’ve also been experiencing mega dry skin and my hair is snapping!! I fucking thought these things were meant to be amazing during pregnancy!!! Not for me at all. Has anyone else experienced this? If so is there anything out there that can help? My skin looks like I’ve been out sunbathing, burnt and now peeling but I haven’t sunbathed once due to me swelling up in the heat! I’m only mainly bothered about my hair to be honest! Don’t really know what to do about it other than get extensions put in afterwards. I’ve never looked after my hair and I’ve dyed it loads during pregnancy but I’ve never seen it snap like this. Anyone would think I’m bleaching it and straightening it everyday but I actually don’t use heat on my hair really and I’ve gone back dark now and it’s since then it’s been snapping which is weird….seriously any advice would be great! 

I’m also going to do something I’ve never done before as well and get down there waxed! I did beauty therapy in college when I was 16 and we had to practice waxing on each other and I would happily let people wax my arms and legs but no one was ever going near that region! However, I can’t reach there properly and I can’t bloody see it! I’ve tried with a mirror but it’s near fucking impossible! Mark attempted to help me the other day but he was too scared he’d cut me haha! I can’t let it get like jumanji- I’d be more mortified having it like a jungle down there than having a shit!!! Sorry but again like I said- all glamour goes out the window when your pregnant. It’s probably all going to go Pete Tong from here on out for a while I’m guessing haha! I am however getting him to shave my legs later as they are awful too! Honestly I even looked at a pregnancy razor…fab idea but £25!!!! Fuck that, haven’t got much longer to go! They don’t half put the prices up on shit when it’s ‘maternity’, ‘baby’, ‘wedding’…..crafty fuckers! Like I said too, the maternity is only a short period of time so there’s no point in buying into shit. Babies aren’t babies forever- that also goes extremely fast so what’s the point in spending £1000’s on shit that you probably won’t use or will use for 5 minutes! And a bloody wedding is only one day!! I can’t believe all the stress it actually causes beforehand!!! 

So if you have money, please launch a cheap, fashionable maternity brand, launch pregnancy razors for £5 and by done miracle, invent a wonder pill that can make all these pregnancy symptoms fuck off! Cheers!

Tits & Tiredness

2BC7217F-06EA-4E4B-8A51-FE345FF0CF79.jpegWell! What a difference from last week! Think we deserved some time off and have some enjoyment!! Done loads of things this week- seen family, proper friends, been shopping, chilled out and we watched Jurassic World which is frigging awesome!! Recommend if you haven’t but also take tissues!! 😂😂 We also had a midwife appointment on Tuesday and she checked size of the baby and all the usual tests. She said baby is already in the right position for birth so I don’t think she will be too long from appearing if I’m honest!!! I’m only 32 weeks now but yes I’m huge, she’s big and if she’s already in the right place then who knows!! We’ve been at a birth class today which is why I’m late typing this up haha but now I know when I’m in labour and what to do, also I’ve wrote up my birth plan…no nature bullshit bollocks here haha!! I want every form of pain relief I can get!!!! Oh and I really hate how much pressure they put on you to breastfeed!!!! I personally don’t want to do it. I’m not even interested in giving it a go. Sorry but it’s my preference and my body. You should do what you want to do. My mum didn’t do it with me as she didn’t want to either. It’s like all this being vegan shit. If that’s what you want to do- great, do it! But don’t force your views and what you do onto other people and try and make them feel shit for not doing so! Same as Jehovah’s witnesses. You believe in what you like but please don’t knock on my door to tell me what I should think. Live life how you want! Anyway after the hour of breastfeeding talk, (which by the way, formula feeding wasn’t even mentioned apart from if you’d need to if your baby was premature and underweight….) they were demonstrating how to change a nappy and about sleep time. Obviously with my profession I didn’t need to listen to any of that shit so we left! Was there for 3 hours and I only listened to about an hour of it haha! Sorry but sat in a hot room, listening to stuff I don’t need to know, on a really uncomfortable chair where my back felt like it was going to snap, when I’ve worked with babies for 10 years- I got bored haha! Don’t get me wrong though, I totally get it if you’ve never really been around babies and the midwife was lovely! I had fun bouncing about on a core ball though!! Made me miss the gym!!! Never thought I’d say that hahahahaha! I’m going to buy one now so when I start getting contractions, I can sit on that! I can use it afterwards for sit ups! 🤪

Other than that, this week seriously has been needed. The only thing else I’d say is that I’m knackered today. I think I slept for about two hours last night which is annoying because I changed all the bed, (nothing beats fresh sheets for me) I’d had a bath and washed my hair, the bedroom was nice and cool and I had the fan on but no…sciatica and acid reflux again. Terrible!! I’ve had acid reflux now for 12 hours. I’ve taken gaviscon, rennies and Tesco’s own version and no. Still not going!! I’m sat here half asleep so I’m sorry if I’m not making any sense anywhere lol! I wouldn’t mind but I had another pregnancy massage on Monday but it’s not helped this time. I think it’s because of how big I am! I’ve also been suffering with my right foot. I tore 5 ligaments in my ankle when I was pissed about two years ago, (that’s what happens when you wear massive heels and jump around like a lunatic  to guns n roses 😂) and now I’m bigger and my feet are swelling- it’s like my foot can’t take the pressure so it’s hurting!!! I’ve also had shooting sensations down below which aren’t bloody nice and yesterday- I had a sharp l, pinch like pain in my right nipple! I’m just googling everything lol as not sure on what else to do! All is normal though! I think I’ve been having some Braxton Hicks contractions but it’s been ever so minor period pain for a couple of minutes and then it’s gone for about 5/6ish hours. I can cope with period pain as horrendous as I get them but also you know, doctors thought I had endometriosis and I’d never been given pain relief for them up until last year when they prescribed me mefenamic acid and even then- I still suffer! It’s more when the ‘ring of fire’ or ‘tear’ gets mentioned I die a little inside! 😂😂

Right I’m going to have to get some rest as I’m literally fighting my eyes and I’m not winning! I need sleep!!!! Til next time….

A week in hell.

2F8C5E67-112E-448A-B7DF-6347219CC7D9.pngThis week has got to easily one of the worst weeks I’ve ever had in my life. We had a phone call last week that Marks Mum was in hospital, I’ve been majorly treated like shit by people, my neighbour is apparently dying of bowel cancer so her grandson and whole tribe of skanks have been blaring music, decorating the house and fucking making ridiculous amounts of noise, I’ve had another chest infection followed by glorious tonsil stones, my sciatica is back which means I’m barely sleeping again, I am trying to sleep with two fans on pointing at me because it’s ridiculously hot outside and every morning at 2/3am, I’m getting acid reflux that bad, I’m wide awake vomiting……At a time where I should be relaxing and chilling out- I’m a massive ball of stress with no release at all, no consideration from people, I’m just so upset and fucking done. 

I’m so glad I’m pregnant. This baby is my saviour- she is giving me every piece of fight I have left. I would have easily done something fucking stupid if I wasn’t carrying my baby. It’s completely giving me a new lease of life. Everything that was once important to me, is completely insignificant. All I need is my Mark, baby and my two beautiful cats. I know exactly who else deserves me and I’ve realised who really is a friend and who genuinely cares for me. It’s an absolute miracle really that all this stress hasn’t caused me to lose my baby. I hate having to even think that, let alone say it! Terrible isn’t it!!! I thought when I found out I was pregnant, I wasn’t ready and it wasn’t the right time but I’m a huge believer in fate. I have tattooed on me ‘everything happens for a reason’ and now I can see exactly why- I was ready and this is the right time because I needed to change and grow up. I just wish this process wasn’t making me so poorly but I know she’s absolutely fine so that’s all I care about now and now it’s my time to focus everything I have into myself and her. Nothing else is important. 

So to try and relax, I’ve ordered myself a book by Sarah Knight called ‘The Life-Changing Magic of not giving a Fuck’. I saw it on someone’s Instagram story and was intrigued so I googled it and as I read a sample on my kindle, it made me chuckle! If you haven’t seen it then download a free sample on kindle or google it and have a look! But basically it’s about the writer saying, ‘Why should we keep giving a fuck about everyone and everything that clearly don’t give a fuck about us or why are we giving a fuck to something that we don’t want to do?!’ I’m looking forward to a good read from someone else on my wave length as I have no faith in the human race anymore. Me and Mark have a week off together now- a little baby moon! So I’m going to try my hardest to relax now and enjoy time with him before our baby arrives. I won’t be picking up my phone nor answering any messages to anyone I don’t want to speak to so if you think this means you, then it does. I’m not having more of my time being spoilt by selfish, nasty twats. 

10 weeks in counting!!

A79EB4C8-0D80-4718-BCD4-04313A29B908.pngRight I’m on countdown now. 10 weeks left (give or take!)- I can do this!!!! I’m massively suffering now! My back is completely fucked, my hands, legs, feet and lower back have swelled up- it’s nothing serious, it’s mainly just because of the hot weather! I’ve had to take my engagement ring off because of how tight it’s gone! I hate that too as when I’m out and about without Mark, I feel like I’m doing this alone lol! Isn’t that pathetic how a piece of jewellery can do that?! The tops of my legs have gained a bit of weight now and have chafed and because it’s been hot and I’ve been wearing summer dresses- my legs have been rubbing that much that they have actually blistered! I’m in pain now and really, really struggling. It’s even hard getting up and about! I struggle now even walking round the supermarket! Seriously don’t get me started on how uncomfortable I’m finding the sofa too lol!! I literally can’t get up on my own unless I get my feet under the coffee table and use them to push myself forwards haha!! Failing that- I have to get Mark to help me! I’ve also had since Tuesday, diarrhoea cramps but when I go to the toilet, I don’t feel like I’m fully going! Also my asthma has now started to get bad and I need my inhalers constantly again! Even my brown one which gave me oral thrush when I had that chest infection! My throat has been really sore and my tonsils have swollen as well! I’ve just felt like bloody shit! Worse than all this though- I’ve had a bit of itchiness down below…to put it politely- a bit like having thrush. I’ve noticed online that a lot of women around this stage get it! Another joy! Ive done everything I can to try and relieve it but settled for trying a bit of metanium nappy cream lol!! Burns a little but it has helped lots so I don’t care!!! To top it all off, I’ve had period type cramps start yesterday! I rang the triage department at the hospital and been told to rest up, take paracetamol (shock!) and if I’m still getting cramps then to take lactulous…just have to see how I’m getting on to be honest! As much as I can’t wait for this pregnancy to be over, I don’t want to go in labour at 30 weeks!! 

I’ve had so much stress on this week as well which hasn’t helped all this going on!! I’ve been trying to sort out my maternity pay which is a nightmare, I’ve had to chase up my compensation for that car crash that I had at 6 weeks pregnant as I had to go back to a private doctor over it all! Talking of doctors, I had to ring them because they had fucked up my midwife appointments and when the midwife rang me, she didn’t even know who I was!! Thankfully none of these people work at the place I’m giving birth at lol! Exactly why I didn’t pick that shit hold!! I’ve also had problems at the bank, I’ve had loads of paperwork to sort out and loads of forms to fill in, as well as work and stress regarding that…..honestly don’t know how I’m doing it all!! Not many people could take on the shit I do lol! Can’t wait to have a bloody drink!! One perk to this week though! I always enter Instagram competitions because they are just so easy! I don’t ever win anything but it’s not hard to just simply like a photo and tag a friend! Since being pregnant, I won a massive Lee Stafford hair care range that came with a silky dressing gown and chocolates and this week I won a £100 voucher with an online store!!! I just chose what I wanted and what sizes and sent them through email and literally received everything the next day!! The clothes are gorgeous even though they won’t fit me yet haha but I also picked some sunglasses and they are amazing!!! My little baby must be lucky!!! I’ve even entered the postcode lottery just incase! 🤪 Just to add to this….I also woke up yesterday to discover I’ve won a makeup hamper!!! Seriously what is going on!

Other than that there isn’t really anything else I can tell you!! I’ve just been sat at home trying to chill out! Thankfully I’ve got a break the next two weeks now so I’m just going to take it easy! Sorry if I’m now boring until she arrives lol!! I’m sure something will piss me off and let me rant as everyone prefers my posts when I’m either taking the piss out of myself or I’m praying for ‘pregnancy purge’ to happen! Imagine that! Literally get away with murder for the whole 40 weeks of pregnancy!! 😂😂😂😂 I think we’d all become extinct!!

Triple H…

86A2D7CF-8183-4C9F-88D9-A1CDC427A93D                   So now I know why Triple H is so angry!!!! Heartburn, Haemorrhoids and Hormones! I know I’ve had all three this whole entire time lol but they are getting progressively worse this week!! Honestly don’t know why everything in pregnancy begins with a ‘H’!! Headaches, heart palpitations…. anyway! I think I’m slowly becoming immune to Gaviscon now! I feel so sorry for people who suffer with acid reflux on a regular basis as I’ve been finding it horrendous!!! At the moment, I literally cannot eat anything without my chest burning and I’m being sick in my mouth loads!!! It’s absolutely rank. If anyone knows any other alternatives to gaviscon and rennie’s so I don’t have to keep going back to the doctors- then that would be great! The gas is slowly creeping back too- Mark said one of my farts smelt like someone had set pork scratchings on fire! 😂😂😂 Honestly, no point trying to hide farts away from your other half at this precious moment as it’s definitely far from glamorous lol! Another thing- I’ve had like 4 nosebleeds the past couple of days! Not really bad ones or anything but I’ve got a horrible taste in my mouth and it’s knocking me sick! Funny as well as I’ve never had a nose bleed in my life ever before! It’s seriously crazy how much your body changes!! My boobs have gone even bigger too which I hate!!! I want my fried eggs back!!! 😂😂 I used to really want a boob job when I was 18 as I was always conscious of how small they were- so glad I didn’t now as I can’t stand them lol!! I’m always picking crumbs out of my bra and if I’m not doing that, I’m pulling my bra down as it’s too small!! I wouldn’t mind, I only bought some a couple of weeks ago and they fit! I’ll just stick to perving at women with big boobs and stay happy with my eggs!! 😂😂

Anyway some good things I will talk about this week! My baby shower! My mum arranged it all because I can’t deal with trying to organise my life anymore haha! I’ve arranged my hen do, wedding and getting the baby everything so I wasn’t going to be arranging that too! Plus  quite a few people let down last minute etc and that would have really stressed me out, so even though I wasn’t bothered at all on the day- it would have most probably put me in a bad mood! Friday I was already having a mental breakdown! That had to be the worst day of my life ever and I’m not even exaggerating!!! So I won’t even talk about it haha! The baby shower though couldn’t have gone better! My mum had took me to get my hair and makeup done whilst Mark had waited at home as we had balloons delivered, my mum had the most gorgeous cupcakes made and bought loads of decorations which when I got back home after being done up myself, Mark had set up the table!! Anyway, the baby got some gorgeous presents and loads of vouchers so me and Mark are going to go shopping today and spend them to get her some more bits!! She also bought a book for everyone to write in which we forgot about haha so I’ve stuck everyone’s cards in there and all the pictures I got, I’ve printed and stuck them in to make a scrapbook- I even kept some of the baby confetti and stuck that in! It will be a little keepsake for her when she’s older! I’m going to do one with all her scans and other bits in too.

So other than all the busy-ness going on, (which I really like because it’s making the weeks go quicker until she’s here) I also had a checkup at the midwife and had the bump measured to make sure she’s growing how she should be, she’s fine! I then had to have my bloods taken and urine checked and so far so good! My legs are starting to swell a little bit- they just feel really stiff now, especially when I’m trying to squat down to pick stuff up or feed the cats haha! Another glorious sign though and they also said it will get worse in this heat we’ve had which to be honest, doesn’t really surprise me because whenever I go on holiday anywhere really hot, my feet and hands swell really badly!!! You should have seen them in Thailand- I had to go in little shops walking round and just buy freezing cold anything to hold in my hands so they calmed down! 😂😂 My legs aren’t that bad at all by the way haha I just hope they don’t get that bad though!! Wish me luck by the way as I’m employing Mark to shave them for me later!! My legs are stupidly long and I’ve never been flexible. Whenever I’ve trained with a PT and they encourage me to reach my toes, I’m easily a good 50cm away from my feet! Shocking! But now this huge bump is in the way- I have no chance! 😂😂😂😂😂 I can’t wait to get back in the gym and train! I really want to get back into boxing, swimming and I want to give yoga a go so I can become a bit more flexible and I also definitely want to go to one of those ninja warrior courses as a laugh! I love watching that on telly and also, I’m obsessed with this girl on Instagram as her ninja skills really impress me!! Plus it looks fucking fun!!! Il probably break my ankle like but il give it a go!! 

I better go and start getting ready as Mark has already gone to the gym and I take bloody ages to make myself look half normal!! That bit hasn’t changed though!! 🤪 I swear, if I ever become rich, I’m hiring a hair and makeup artist to just sort me out everyday hahaha!! 

Just a couple from the baby shower for those who just follow my blog posts! 😊

Haters & Haemorrhoids..

C4124562-0406-4D03-AB58-C9F0C23656F6Grrr signing on here the other day to see some bullshit opinion of what someone else thinks about me and what I’m going through, pisses me right off. I was waiting for some twat to make a comment and normally I’d over look it, but considering it’s about me, my baby and my pregnancy….hell NO!!!! So let me just start off by saying this and then I will never reply to a bullshit comment ever again (although I can’t believe I’m actually even defending myself): 

This blog is about MY pregnancy, body, mind, baby and how I am dealing with it. Think of it as my diary. It is nothing to do with other women who are pregnant or who have sadly suffered a loss or have struggled to conceive. It is all about ME, MY body, MY pregnancy and MY baby. I did say in my bio that if you are easily offended, then you should not read my content- nor if you are not interested in me or my baby then quite frankly- go and fuck yourself. I never intended on getting pregnant at this moment in time in my life. I was on the pill, I’ve got my wedding/honeymoon booked, I look after 7-9 children everyday for 11 hours with NO break…..but at the same time, I am, (we both are) over the moon that me and Mark are having a baby. I’m sorry that I don’t find my pregnancy the most amazing thing in the world- everyone who has been reading my blog posts each week, knows I’ve not had a walk in the park. Also I will point out that I won’t get proper maternity leave, nor get a proper break or a rest because I run my own business and I’m self employed! So yes, working 55 hours a week, whilst sleeping maybe 4 hours a night and being heavily pregnant and ill every single week, is a challenge!!!! Also I’d like to remind you that every woman is different. Plenty of my friends and family, including my own mum, have had miscarriages and still births- some have even struggled to conceive- and they completely understand that I’m going through a hard time and they have seen how shit I’ve been feeling and they aren’t offended by what I say to them, because they know how hard it can be and they know how I’m feeling! Pregnancy isn’t a walk in the park and there will be millions of other women in the same boat as myself. It’s actually nice to hear other women who find it hard because it’s REAL. Infact, I follow loads of bloggers who write the same as me!! I do get the few odd good days, but it’s mainly very hard for me! I could have bullshitted everyone each week by saying how amazing it is and how happy I am everyday,  but I’m not a liar! Yes, I haven’t enjoyed being pregnant at all- but do I love my daughter? Am I glad I’m doing this? The answer is- FUCK YEAH! To troll someone ‘anonymously’ is shit enough as it is but to troll someone pregnant who is already going through something they find REALLY difficult both physically and mentally…is just a twat. Odds are it’s someone that I know and they just feel like sticking their two pence in because they don’t like me…that’s fine- don’t do it ‘anon’, it’s extremely cowardly. I’d think more about you if it wasn’t done in a shit way. Also I will point out that if you actually read what I said about my daughter moving inside me- you would see that my exact words were, ‘I must admit though, now she’s getting bigger- I can really feel her giving it some! It’s like a shark frenzy at times in my belly!! Not going to lie but I don’t like it!!! It makes me jump and find it so annoyingly uncomfortable!!! Don’t get me wrong, it’s lovely and reassuring at the same time but sometimes it’s really draining.’          I’ve not said anywhere that I HATE feeling her moving!!!!!!!! All I said was that it makes me jump which I don’t like and it can be uncomfortable SOMETIMES and I’m sorry, but it’s true! The ignorant person who gave me their bullshit opinion, even said themselves it’s uncomfortable but commented on me saying it! Fucking hypocrite! Remember this is the first time I’ve ever experienced this and also, I’ve only just been feeling these big kicks the further on my pregnancy is getting! I’m now used to them and actually, I had a scare this week when I went to the toilet as I’d lost a mountain of blood (luckily from my bum because of haemorrhoids but I absolutely shit myself and got in a right state where I had a panic attack until I laid down on the bed and felt her kick me) so don’t fucking tell me that I hate my baby moving!! Infact- just take your bullshit opinion and shove it up your vagina. I’ve seen other blog posts where people have talked about not wanting their child as it wasn’t the gender they wanted or reasons why they have terminated their pregnancies. Are they aimed at other women? NO!! It is what they are feeling. Is it my place to judge? No. No, it is not as again- it is their life and what they are going through. Like Mark responded back, ‘In other words….stop faking offence stop taking everything personal, your not acting on anyone’s behalf your just a troll online who has very little really compassion to anyone and is a selfish cunt!’

Last but certainly not least, I know my life- scrap that- mine and Mark’s life isn’t just about us anymore. It is a massive life change for both of us. I’ve already fucking changed massively!!! (Not just the bump ha!) I’ve become more organised, I’ve not done anything that could potentially harm my baby e.g have a cigarette or have alcohol. I’ve avoided busy places and nights out because I’m scared someone will bang into me or I’ll fall over- I didn’t even leave the house when it fucking snowed because I normally fall flat on my arse! I’ve not been lying on my back…I was even fucking worried taking antibiotics for my infected wisdom tooth this week!!!!!!! Like I even said in a previous post, I don’t care that I’m taking all this shit now if it means she’s healthy. Let me tell you something else- when my daughter is here, she will be my everything and will come before absolutely everything and everyone and I would fucking die for her!!!! Because of judgemental people like you, other women may be suffering in silence about how they feel through their pregnancy! My blog is an honest, open book, and might actually help someone who is suffering with their pregnancy and feeling the same as me but might feel guilty for feeling like this, because at times, I do myself! I wish I could enjoy this experience!! Not talking about how you feeling however can cause serious mental health issues which are not good for the mother OR the baby! I know this because I myself have been a sufferer of mental health! I’m finding this part the most challenging over everything!!! Any of you who are reading this and may feel depressed, take a look at this article- you aren’t alone. https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/pregnancy-and-baby/mental-health-problems-pregnant/

I think I’ve got everything off my chest apart from the remaining parts of acid reflux maybe! Of course it wouldn’t be a typical Jenna blog post if I didn’t have a rant or bitch about something! 😂 So I’ve now entered the third trimester! I’ve not felt great all week what with my tooth and all this shit, as well as working so much! I’ve not even had a chance to chill out because I’ve had things to do and we also spent all of last weekend, listening to one of our neighbours shouting and the other neighbour was having her whole house ripped apart to be re done as well so it’s been very noisy- can’t forget about all the dogs barking and birds squawking! (someone on our street has a fucking bird aviary in their back garden and one of her parrots got out!) Oh and Marks been really ill this week too! I just broke down yesterday about everything- literally spent 12 hours crying about everything! I’ve had enough now! I think I just need a holiday! Sorry for the long rant but I cannot stand bullying or trolling and I think it’s important to defend yourself. I certainly want my daughter to not take shit from some stupid pricks opinions! Anyway I’m going to go and try to enjoy my weekend now and I’ve off to have my pregnancy massage! 

Pain in the mouth….


Just when you think, ‘Life’s great at the moment!’ Another spanner gets thrown in the works!! The morning of my birthday, I woke up with a sore throat feel in my mouth. I had a look and right at the back of my throat was a fucking massive tonsil stone!!!! Grrrr not had one for weeks and weeks, I thought they had officially gone but no! Wonderful! Anyway I got it out but inside my mouth was still a bit sore all day but luckily enough, it didn’t cause me too much pain! So I had a lovely birthday! Me and Mark went into Manchester, went to the cat cafe, he took me shopping and bought me things and we went for food…then I came home and just cried for about an hour for NO reason whatsoever! 😩 I don’t know whether it’s the fact I’d been busy all weekend and was overwhelmed with everything….god knows. Spoilt the end and Mark was upset for me bless him! I just felt like shit so went to bed and woke up in fucking pain with my mouth! I went and checked thinking maybe I had a sore throat (I daren’t say tonsillitis lol) but actually, it was my bastard wisdom tooth!!!! The gum around it was a bit swollen so I gave it a good clean, used mouthwash and just went and took some painkillers but all day it was murder. I have a dentist appointment next week so I thought I’d just put up with it until then but Tuesday it was 100 times worse!! The gum had actually physically swelled over my tooth so I couldn’t even see it (it’s not fully through this tooth btw, it’s been peeking through for the past three years…) so I just phoned the dentist and luckily enough, they got me in quick! So yes it’s infected! This is the 3rd time it’s been infected!!!! The first time it happened, a bit of food or something had got caught in the gum and it became infected and the next time was because of the wisdom tooth above cutting into the gum so they removed that….and now it’s infected just because I’m pregnant! They have now referred me to get the bastard out thank god! She reckoned by the time the baby is out, I should get an appointment! I joked and said I don’t mind being put under whilst they get baby and the tooth out at the same time! 😂😂

Thing is now though because I have an infection, my whole immune system is down and I’m really snotty which has been really bloody too (another common sign of pregnancy wooo) and just genuinely achy! They prescribed me Amoxicillin for the infection which has actually made it worse!!! I’ve never had any problems with that before so I’m actually shocked!! So I had to go back to the dentist with an emergency appointment and I’ve been prescribed Erythromycin so now I’m going to have to wait a few more days for them to start working and that’s if they do!!!! If they don’t I’m fucked because there is nothing else they can give me!!! Honestly it’s so painful- salt water rinse  it is in the mean time too! 😩 I was up all night last night the pain was that bad, then I could feel that acid burn on my chest so I sat up and vomited everywhere at 04:34am so had to neck gaviscon…. fucking detest that stuff!!! I am heading into the third trimester so it will probably be all tits up from here but then I’m closer to it all being over and done with! I can’t wait for this warm weather again and we have some time off work booked so at least I can have a proper chill and rest! I’m so ahead of myself too which I don’t suppose is a bad thing! I’ve bought everything for my hospital bag and have that packed up ready! I’ve got everything I need for her which is good. I’ve bought holiday bits for my hen do so that’s sorted! So apart from all the suffering- I’m on the ball! I’ve never been so organised in my whole life haha!!! I normally just wing everything and go along with the flow but maybe it’s my motherly instinct kicking in! It’s so funny how we found out 20 weeks ago until now!!! I actually think it has flown!! Almost there- I have a feeling she is going to be early too. Mark reckons the same! We have end of June/beginning on July in our minds but we will have to wait and see! It’s because she’s a big bugger already lol! As long as she’s healthy then that’s all that matters, even though I’m dying haha!! I must admit bough, now she’s getting bigger- I can really feel her giving it some! It’s like a shark frenzy at times in my belly!! Not going to lie but I don’t like it!!! It makes me jump and find it so annoyingly uncomfortable!!! Don’t get me wrong, it’s lovely and reassuring at the same time but sometimes it’s really draining! I’ve booked my pregnancy massage in so I’m looking forward to that now especially after this awful week and I also need to book my next dermaplanning facial in as my skin is starting to go to pot again!!! 

I’m going to go get ready now and enjoy this weather and hopefully cuddle with Diego after a shower! He’s my little feisty cat but he’s finally started being all over me, following me about the house and flops next to me on the bed! He was even kneading the bump the other day! Bless him. I do love how cuddly my cats have turned since being pregnant! Them, food and scans have been my only enjoyable part!! So hopefully after a good cat snuggle, a rest in this sun and these antibiotics will help my tooth won’t be killing me so much!