Hot and bothered!

A9755A62-3D8D-42D1-AAF8-DC7BEC2C70E8.pngAnother usual week of moaning haha!! Don’t think I’m ever going to be happy until she’s out now!!! Not only has it been ridiculously hot, (normally love the summer but let’s face it, in Britain when it’s this hot it’s shit!) so I’ve not been sleeping because I’m so hot, I’m not really eating because I’m so hot and I can’t get comfortable anyway I try and get comfy because I’m SO HOT!!!! Luckily we have now got an air conditioning unit and WOW! Life changing! 😂 But other than being too hot….the fucking neighbours next door are becoming a real problem. So as you all know, I’m a childminder so I look after children from my house. Doesn’t look good when you drop your child off in the morning and the neighbours are sat in the front garden, (don’t understand why you’d sit at the front of your house, when you have a back garden???? To each their own but!) drinking Carling and Stella from 9am but from 17:00pm onwards, they are pissed and stoned!!! They have had parties blaring music and even sitting out there til 1am talking loud!!! Our bedroom is right above there and we can’t even have the windows open in this heat because of the noise!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also pisses me off as when I walk in my bedroom, it smells like a fucking ashtray!!! Doesn’t look good to people collecting their children off us either! I mean the reason they are all there is because the old lady who lives there is dying?! I’ve never known anything like it. Yet we get told we are ‘inconsiderate’ for parking on OUR driveway because she’s dying?!?! So anyway, I’ve been nagging and nagging Mark to see if we can move! I know it won’t/can’t happen YET but I really don’t want to bring my newborn baby girl back home when it’s like this! So I actually convinced Mark to come look at some show homes for new builds with me and now, he wants to move more than me!! He’s just more Captain sensible whereas I’m like, ‘Fuck it!’ Haha we balance each other out perfectly! That’s our goal after the wedding anyway! Cannot wait. We’re also looking at out of our area, 1) because we both HATE people turning up unexpected. If Mark is out at the gym after work and the door knocks, if I don’t know who it is then it sets my anxiety off. Probably stems from it happening at my old flat as a teen where I let someone in to do a job and we got robbed. Plus I just don’t trust people! So unless I know your coming, I won’t answer the door and then I’ll be on the phone to Mark, panicking as to who it is lol!! 2) I’ve lived here for 28 years and been nothing but shat on by everyone whether it’s people I’ve worked for or ex ‘friends’….I’m at the point where I just can’t be arsed bumping into people I haven’t got time for. I’m not fucking scared of anyone at all and nor am I intimidated by anyone, but I really do hate confrontation and I will avoid it where I can unless I’m really angry or it comes at me unexpectedly. I just don’t want to out with my baby one day and have someone come over that I am not interested in and me lose my shit! I’m done and I just want a fresh start as a married couple, with our child and to start over to give her the best life ever!! I’m not talking about moving to the other side of the world, although I would move to Canada tomorrow if it was possible! But it’s far enough away to not be around dickheads but it’s close enough for my mum to be able to visit everyday if she wanted as I know she will have a very close relationship with our baby! I think after this awful year so far and all the horrible shit that’s been our way, we deserve a break! So if your reading this and your a multi millionaire or your from Canada- give us money to buy the house we’ve seen or get us a Canadian citizenship lol!! 

I was meant to have the midwife on Tuesday too but because I was in Triage on Friday night and they did all the checks and tests I would have had on Tuesday, I was able to push the appointment back! However I did try and get in the dentist the same day as I’ve woken up to my retainer has broke! Grrrrr! Lucky the dentist got me in pretty quick and it’s now fixed without too much movement! The main reason I got these fucking braces was to have perfect teeth for my wedding! Honestly telling you, 1 step forward, 10 fucking back!!! Just annoying as they cost me a lot of money and they were fine shit where I got them- but in all fairness, they looked perfect when I first got them done! Hopefully baby won’t have shit teeth lol! Anyway midwife….I looked at my notes when I was on the phone to her, asking her if I needed to come in due to triage, she just asked me to read my notes and baby is measuring at 5.9 pounds and she’s 34cm! She’s not stopping moving either! ‘Time your movements’….it’s 24/7!!! Even at triage they said they have rarely seen a baby that active!!! You can actually see her from the outside moving! I poke her sometimes as she’s doing it lol and she’s started poking back!!!! Bet she’s like ‘Oh fuck off’ haha! I bet it’s because there is barely any room left in my belly now!!! I’m downing pineapple juice like no tomorrow!! Better start working soon! 😂😂 So she just said she’ll see me at 36 weeks which is next week anyway so it’s been pushed back! Hopefully she’ll be out soon now! I visited my friend whose just had her baby yesterday and omg he’s so cute!! 😍 I just couldn’t help feeling massively jealous though holding her baby when I’m dying to just have mine here!!! Mark was loving it haha! Getting his pre daddy prep on the go!

I don’t think I will be much longer now anyway! It literally could be any day now anyway, so I’m all packed for hospital so I’ve been making a labour playlist on my phone too lol! Thinking of absolutely everything now! 😂😂 She should be a massive music fan anyway as not only do I sing 24/7 lol, (not well I might add!) but she goes bananas when I have music on or I’m singing! Maybe that’s why she’s so active hahhaa!! She’s got not choice but to be a Lady Gaga fan anyway! 

Triage and terror baby!

189E6552-16E0-44D7-91D6-B32A0EBE65C2.pngThree times I’ve had to rewrite parts of this blog. Three lol! So here we go…third time lucky! What a nightmare week. Seriously. I’ve had really low blood pressure and was very ill for a good couple of days,  I’ve been in hospital, I’ve been non stop vomiting, acid reflux is not getting any better, sciatica is getting worse…I’ve seriously had enough now. I’m drained, stressed, tired, fed up and sick of everything to be quite frank! I know all pregnant ladies get fed up towards the end but I’ve felt like this the entire time and now I’m literally at breaking point! I honestly thought it was all coming to an end earlier this week too as I thought my waters broke! First time this week I’ve actually fucking smiled lol!!! But that soon faded when I realised it wasn’t and it was just piss!! I swear to god though, I was adamant at first it couldn’t have been! I basically was dying for a wee, I must go now every minutes of the day…..so went for a wee, stood up and pulled my knickers up then turned to flush the toilet when it just trickled out! It went down my leg and on the floor so I thought, ‘Great! This is it!!’ But yeah sadly not, just more piss that clearly hadn’t come out whilst sat on the loo! Great! Been getting more and more Braxton Hicks and my lower back is really sore now so I’m genuinely hoping I’m not going to be far off. I’m sick of being ill! Honestly back to vomiting and acid reflux is draining me. Main reason for my low blood pressure because I’m dehydrated!! I have to keep drinking loads! I seem to be wanting cans of coke at the moment! It made me feel sick at first- maybe because of the caffeine, but think my body needs a bit of that haha! 

It’s been more the stress which is also taking a massive toll. Every week as your aware, we’ve had some form of shit going on. And I mean that, 34 weeks of pure, solid, shit. I’ve just had enough. I’m really hormonal now- I just want to be on my own with my cats lol! Seriously that’s all I want! People have been so inconsiderate and selfish in regards to me being pregnant. This week for example, we’ve had a spat with the neighbours because they have been parking right over our driveway, blocking our car in. Mark stuck a notice on one of the cars stating that I could go into labour at anytime and we will need to keep the driveway clear due to me needing to get to hospital, which resulting in a neighbour banging on our door telling us to not park on our own drive but in the road if that’s the case!!!!! Honestly never wanted to smack someone in the face so hard in all of my life. I’ve then had several different people saying to me that they hope I have my baby on a certain day as it’s more ‘convenient’ for them! I had one ask me what date we were planning on giving birth so they could book a holiday! I’ve had another saying ‘Can you have a quiet word with baby to come after the 1st July as I get annual leave then’……. honestly let me say, it’s convenient for me that she comes NOW before I kill the next person who comes out with such nonsense! 😂😂😂 HONESTLY!!  I’ve looked after children that have been born at 23 weeks. I know people that have been pregnant for 42 weeks, my sister had my niece at 34 weeks!!! There’s no point in a ‘due date’ in my opinion because it’s whenever the fucking baby chooses lol!!!! Whether me, you, the neighbours fucking goldfish like it! Baby will come when she is good and ready whether I like it or not. She wasn’t planned as everyone knows so it’s just a rollercoaster time and I’m stuck on it until it ends! I think the thing that winds me up so much about it is because everyone knows how ill I have been, how much shit we’ve taken- plus there have been many more things that have gone on which I haven’t even mentioned in this blog!!! I’ve had enough and believe me, I’m looking forward to having a bottle of fucking vodka and a whole packet of fags when she’s out! 😂😂😂 So when people want this to go on longer for me but convenient for them pisses me off. End of.

I’ve been told to rest as much as possible now but I can’t really until she’s out because I still have to work! So hard being self employed at a time like this. Most other women get to finish work now or at least soon- and at least get months off once their baby is here. I certainly won’t get that. Not fair really how I get to look after everyone else’s children and won’t get to really enjoy my own baby for a while but unfortunately it’s my job and I don’t know many other parents that get to work from home together and both raising our child. I just wish I could have a decent break. I think all I need is for baby to come out, a little time off to recover and then a massive holiday! Thank god this will be happening but just want it now!! Honestly it’s a miracle this baby is so healthy because low blood pressure topped with stress….I don’t even want to think about it. This is another reason I want her here safe and sound. Oh and another reason- my friend has just had her little boy the other day!!! We were only 4 weeks apart so now I’ve seen pictures of him- I want to meet her now!!! When your sat in Triage for 6 hours and seeing women going into labour and then seeing and hearing loads of newborn babies…I was just sat there wanting to go in and have her even more!!! 

COME ON BABY!!!!!!!

1DB6A57C-FC71-4A10-AA78-52A1928466EAA very tired and delusional mummy & daddy!

 

 

Oh the glamour…

EA274A21-A716-429D-A9AB-0EBAA31560DFGosh I could have really done with having another week off!! No time off now until our little madam arrives!! I really can’t wait anymore, A) so I’m no longer pregnant and B) so we can meet her!! Everyday we talk about what she’s going to look like and how she’s going to be, etc. I’m getting nervous about labour now though! I think all that talk from the antenatal class has finally caught up with me! Bit bloody late for worrying now though haha!! At least once I’ve done it- I never have to do it ever again!!! It’s funny in a way though how quick it all has actually gone- it feels like a long time at the moment but in reality, it’s quite a short period of time to create a life isn’t it! I had a great week off last week though and weekend was brilliant as got to go to one of my good friends baby shower! She’s 5 weeks ahead of me but her baby boy could be here in the next week! My daughter will already have a good friend there!! I know about another 10 people since who are pregnant now!!! Seems we’ve all been at it around the same time hahaha! Majority of people are having boys that I know so far, I’m the only one having a girl! 

So pregnancy symptoms this week- tiredness, nose bleeds, sciatica, acid reflux, bad back….I’ve also been getting really painful feelings in my belly and downstairs! The other night I had bad period type pain for about an hour and I’ve actually got it a bit this morning! Shooting pains in your bits isn’t pleasant either!! Currently sat here jumping out my skin whilst it’s happening lol! I’ve even had little pains like that in my nipples which fucking hurts! Hope it’s a sign she’s coming sooner rather than later!!! I’ve got a swiss ball now though so I’ve been using that a bit which helps my back a bit and I’m hoping will get little one down a bit more! I can’t believe how tired I’m getting now though, but haven’t been sleeping great, just find everything so uncomfortable and I hate trying to turn over in the night! Acid reflux seems to be really bad at night and for some reason, I’m back to vomiting everywhere when I brush my teeth!! Honest to god I cannot  wait for the day I wake up without feeling like a dragon or being sick! Nose bleeds are probably the worst thing however! I woke up the other morning with it everywhere. The taste of metal from all the iron in my blood as well is disgusting, I feel like I’ve been sucking on a penny! This also makes me feel sick as you can imagine! Hard when people ask you what you want to eat when all you can taste is metal and your chest feels on fire! Sciatica is mainly bad at night too but my back feels worse. That deep freeze gel is pretty good though and helps. Wish it would help my ankle though but just have to try and rest it as much as I can. Oh I’ve also forgot to mention in this blog, bloody baby brain, I’ve also been experiencing mega dry skin and my hair is snapping!! I fucking thought these things were meant to be amazing during pregnancy!!! Not for me at all. Has anyone else experienced this? If so is there anything out there that can help? My skin looks like I’ve been out sunbathing, burnt and now peeling but I haven’t sunbathed once due to me swelling up in the heat! I’m only mainly bothered about my hair to be honest! Don’t really know what to do about it other than get extensions put in afterwards. I’ve never looked after my hair and I’ve dyed it loads during pregnancy but I’ve never seen it snap like this. Anyone would think I’m bleaching it and straightening it everyday but I actually don’t use heat on my hair really and I’ve gone back dark now and it’s since then it’s been snapping which is weird….seriously any advice would be great! 

I’m also going to do something I’ve never done before as well and get down there waxed! I did beauty therapy in college when I was 16 and we had to practice waxing on each other and I would happily let people wax my arms and legs but no one was ever going near that region! However, I can’t reach there properly and I can’t bloody see it! I’ve tried with a mirror but it’s near fucking impossible! Mark attempted to help me the other day but he was too scared he’d cut me haha! I can’t let it get like jumanji- I’d be more mortified having it like a jungle down there than having a shit!!! Sorry but again like I said- all glamour goes out the window when your pregnant. It’s probably all going to go Pete Tong from here on out for a while I’m guessing haha! I am however getting him to shave my legs later as they are awful too! Honestly I even looked at a pregnancy razor…fab idea but £25!!!! Fuck that, haven’t got much longer to go! They don’t half put the prices up on shit when it’s ‘maternity’, ‘baby’, ‘wedding’…..crafty fuckers! Like I said too, the maternity is only a short period of time so there’s no point in buying into shit. Babies aren’t babies forever- that also goes extremely fast so what’s the point in spending £1000’s on shit that you probably won’t use or will use for 5 minutes! And a bloody wedding is only one day!! I can’t believe all the stress it actually causes beforehand!!! 

So if you have money, please launch a cheap, fashionable maternity brand, launch pregnancy razors for £5 and by done miracle, invent a wonder pill that can make all these pregnancy symptoms fuck off! Cheers!

Tits & Tiredness

2BC7217F-06EA-4E4B-8A51-FE345FF0CF79.jpegWell! What a difference from last week! Think we deserved some time off and have some enjoyment!! Done loads of things this week- seen family, proper friends, been shopping, chilled out and we watched Jurassic World which is frigging awesome!! Recommend if you haven’t but also take tissues!! 😂😂 We also had a midwife appointment on Tuesday and she checked size of the baby and all the usual tests. She said baby is already in the right position for birth so I don’t think she will be too long from appearing if I’m honest!!! I’m only 32 weeks now but yes I’m huge, she’s big and if she’s already in the right place then who knows!! We’ve been at a birth class today which is why I’m late typing this up haha but now I know when I’m in labour and what to do, also I’ve wrote up my birth plan…no nature bullshit bollocks here haha!! I want every form of pain relief I can get!!!! Oh and I really hate how much pressure they put on you to breastfeed!!!! I personally don’t want to do it. I’m not even interested in giving it a go. Sorry but it’s my preference and my body. You should do what you want to do. My mum didn’t do it with me as she didn’t want to either. It’s like all this being vegan shit. If that’s what you want to do- great, do it! But don’t force your views and what you do onto other people and try and make them feel shit for not doing so! Same as Jehovah’s witnesses. You believe in what you like but please don’t knock on my door to tell me what I should think. Live life how you want! Anyway after the hour of breastfeeding talk, (which by the way, formula feeding wasn’t even mentioned apart from if you’d need to if your baby was premature and underweight….) they were demonstrating how to change a nappy and about sleep time. Obviously with my profession I didn’t need to listen to any of that shit so we left! Was there for 3 hours and I only listened to about an hour of it haha! Sorry but sat in a hot room, listening to stuff I don’t need to know, on a really uncomfortable chair where my back felt like it was going to snap, when I’ve worked with babies for 10 years- I got bored haha! Don’t get me wrong though, I totally get it if you’ve never really been around babies and the midwife was lovely! I had fun bouncing about on a core ball though!! Made me miss the gym!!! Never thought I’d say that hahahahaha! I’m going to buy one now so when I start getting contractions, I can sit on that! I can use it afterwards for sit ups! 🤪

Other than that, this week seriously has been needed. The only thing else I’d say is that I’m knackered today. I think I slept for about two hours last night which is annoying because I changed all the bed, (nothing beats fresh sheets for me) I’d had a bath and washed my hair, the bedroom was nice and cool and I had the fan on but no…sciatica and acid reflux again. Terrible!! I’ve had acid reflux now for 12 hours. I’ve taken gaviscon, rennies and Tesco’s own version and no. Still not going!! I’m sat here half asleep so I’m sorry if I’m not making any sense anywhere lol! I wouldn’t mind but I had another pregnancy massage on Monday but it’s not helped this time. I think it’s because of how big I am! I’ve also been suffering with my right foot. I tore 5 ligaments in my ankle when I was pissed about two years ago, (that’s what happens when you wear massive heels and jump around like a lunatic  to guns n roses 😂) and now I’m bigger and my feet are swelling- it’s like my foot can’t take the pressure so it’s hurting!!! I’ve also had shooting sensations down below which aren’t bloody nice and yesterday- I had a sharp l, pinch like pain in my right nipple! I’m just googling everything lol as not sure on what else to do! All is normal though! I think I’ve been having some Braxton Hicks contractions but it’s been ever so minor period pain for a couple of minutes and then it’s gone for about 5/6ish hours. I can cope with period pain as horrendous as I get them but also you know, doctors thought I had endometriosis and I’d never been given pain relief for them up until last year when they prescribed me mefenamic acid and even then- I still suffer! It’s more when the ‘ring of fire’ or ‘tear’ gets mentioned I die a little inside! 😂😂

Right I’m going to have to get some rest as I’m literally fighting my eyes and I’m not winning! I need sleep!!!! Til next time….

A week in hell.

2F8C5E67-112E-448A-B7DF-6347219CC7D9.pngThis week has got to easily one of the worst weeks I’ve ever had in my life. We had a phone call last week that Marks Mum was in hospital, I’ve been majorly treated like shit by people, my neighbour is apparently dying of bowel cancer so her grandson and whole tribe of skanks have been blaring music, decorating the house and fucking making ridiculous amounts of noise, I’ve had another chest infection followed by glorious tonsil stones, my sciatica is back which means I’m barely sleeping again, I am trying to sleep with two fans on pointing at me because it’s ridiculously hot outside and every morning at 2/3am, I’m getting acid reflux that bad, I’m wide awake vomiting……At a time where I should be relaxing and chilling out- I’m a massive ball of stress with no release at all, no consideration from people, I’m just so upset and fucking done. 

I’m so glad I’m pregnant. This baby is my saviour- she is giving me every piece of fight I have left. I would have easily done something fucking stupid if I wasn’t carrying my baby. It’s completely giving me a new lease of life. Everything that was once important to me, is completely insignificant. All I need is my Mark, baby and my two beautiful cats. I know exactly who else deserves me and I’ve realised who really is a friend and who genuinely cares for me. It’s an absolute miracle really that all this stress hasn’t caused me to lose my baby. I hate having to even think that, let alone say it! Terrible isn’t it!!! I thought when I found out I was pregnant, I wasn’t ready and it wasn’t the right time but I’m a huge believer in fate. I have tattooed on me ‘everything happens for a reason’ and now I can see exactly why- I was ready and this is the right time because I needed to change and grow up. I just wish this process wasn’t making me so poorly but I know she’s absolutely fine so that’s all I care about now and now it’s my time to focus everything I have into myself and her. Nothing else is important. 

So to try and relax, I’ve ordered myself a book by Sarah Knight called ‘The Life-Changing Magic of not giving a Fuck’. I saw it on someone’s Instagram story and was intrigued so I googled it and as I read a sample on my kindle, it made me chuckle! If you haven’t seen it then download a free sample on kindle or google it and have a look! But basically it’s about the writer saying, ‘Why should we keep giving a fuck about everyone and everything that clearly don’t give a fuck about us or why are we giving a fuck to something that we don’t want to do?!’ I’m looking forward to a good read from someone else on my wave length as I have no faith in the human race anymore. Me and Mark have a week off together now- a little baby moon! So I’m going to try my hardest to relax now and enjoy time with him before our baby arrives. I won’t be picking up my phone nor answering any messages to anyone I don’t want to speak to so if you think this means you, then it does. I’m not having more of my time being spoilt by selfish, nasty twats. 

10 weeks in counting!!

A79EB4C8-0D80-4718-BCD4-04313A29B908.pngRight I’m on countdown now. 10 weeks left (give or take!)- I can do this!!!! I’m massively suffering now! My back is completely fucked, my hands, legs, feet and lower back have swelled up- it’s nothing serious, it’s mainly just because of the hot weather! I’ve had to take my engagement ring off because of how tight it’s gone! I hate that too as when I’m out and about without Mark, I feel like I’m doing this alone lol! Isn’t that pathetic how a piece of jewellery can do that?! The tops of my legs have gained a bit of weight now and have chafed and because it’s been hot and I’ve been wearing summer dresses- my legs have been rubbing that much that they have actually blistered! I’m in pain now and really, really struggling. It’s even hard getting up and about! I struggle now even walking round the supermarket! Seriously don’t get me started on how uncomfortable I’m finding the sofa too lol!! I literally can’t get up on my own unless I get my feet under the coffee table and use them to push myself forwards haha!! Failing that- I have to get Mark to help me! I’ve also had since Tuesday, diarrhoea cramps but when I go to the toilet, I don’t feel like I’m fully going! Also my asthma has now started to get bad and I need my inhalers constantly again! Even my brown one which gave me oral thrush when I had that chest infection! My throat has been really sore and my tonsils have swollen as well! I’ve just felt like bloody shit! Worse than all this though- I’ve had a bit of itchiness down below…to put it politely- a bit like having thrush. I’ve noticed online that a lot of women around this stage get it! Another joy! Ive done everything I can to try and relieve it but settled for trying a bit of metanium nappy cream lol!! Burns a little but it has helped lots so I don’t care!!! To top it all off, I’ve had period type cramps start yesterday! I rang the triage department at the hospital and been told to rest up, take paracetamol (shock!) and if I’m still getting cramps then to take lactulous…just have to see how I’m getting on to be honest! As much as I can’t wait for this pregnancy to be over, I don’t want to go in labour at 30 weeks!! 

I’ve had so much stress on this week as well which hasn’t helped all this going on!! I’ve been trying to sort out my maternity pay which is a nightmare, I’ve had to chase up my compensation for that car crash that I had at 6 weeks pregnant as I had to go back to a private doctor over it all! Talking of doctors, I had to ring them because they had fucked up my midwife appointments and when the midwife rang me, she didn’t even know who I was!! Thankfully none of these people work at the place I’m giving birth at lol! Exactly why I didn’t pick that shit hold!! I’ve also had problems at the bank, I’ve had loads of paperwork to sort out and loads of forms to fill in, as well as work and stress regarding that…..honestly don’t know how I’m doing it all!! Not many people could take on the shit I do lol! Can’t wait to have a bloody drink!! One perk to this week though! I always enter Instagram competitions because they are just so easy! I don’t ever win anything but it’s not hard to just simply like a photo and tag a friend! Since being pregnant, I won a massive Lee Stafford hair care range that came with a silky dressing gown and chocolates and this week I won a £100 voucher with an online store!!! I just chose what I wanted and what sizes and sent them through email and literally received everything the next day!! The clothes are gorgeous even though they won’t fit me yet haha but I also picked some sunglasses and they are amazing!!! My little baby must be lucky!!! I’ve even entered the postcode lottery just incase! 🤪 Just to add to this….I also woke up yesterday to discover I’ve won a makeup hamper!!! Seriously what is going on!

Other than that there isn’t really anything else I can tell you!! I’ve just been sat at home trying to chill out! Thankfully I’ve got a break the next two weeks now so I’m just going to take it easy! Sorry if I’m now boring until she arrives lol!! I’m sure something will piss me off and let me rant as everyone prefers my posts when I’m either taking the piss out of myself or I’m praying for ‘pregnancy purge’ to happen! Imagine that! Literally get away with murder for the whole 40 weeks of pregnancy!! 😂😂😂😂 I think we’d all become extinct!!

Triple H…

86A2D7CF-8183-4C9F-88D9-A1CDC427A93D                   So now I know why Triple H is so angry!!!! Heartburn, Haemorrhoids and Hormones! I know I’ve had all three this whole entire time lol but they are getting progressively worse this week!! Honestly don’t know why everything in pregnancy begins with a ‘H’!! Headaches, heart palpitations…. anyway! I think I’m slowly becoming immune to Gaviscon now! I feel so sorry for people who suffer with acid reflux on a regular basis as I’ve been finding it horrendous!!! At the moment, I literally cannot eat anything without my chest burning and I’m being sick in my mouth loads!!! It’s absolutely rank. If anyone knows any other alternatives to gaviscon and rennie’s so I don’t have to keep going back to the doctors- then that would be great! The gas is slowly creeping back too- Mark said one of my farts smelt like someone had set pork scratchings on fire! 😂😂😂 Honestly, no point trying to hide farts away from your other half at this precious moment as it’s definitely far from glamorous lol! Another thing- I’ve had like 4 nosebleeds the past couple of days! Not really bad ones or anything but I’ve got a horrible taste in my mouth and it’s knocking me sick! Funny as well as I’ve never had a nose bleed in my life ever before! It’s seriously crazy how much your body changes!! My boobs have gone even bigger too which I hate!!! I want my fried eggs back!!! 😂😂 I used to really want a boob job when I was 18 as I was always conscious of how small they were- so glad I didn’t now as I can’t stand them lol!! I’m always picking crumbs out of my bra and if I’m not doing that, I’m pulling my bra down as it’s too small!! I wouldn’t mind, I only bought some a couple of weeks ago and they fit! I’ll just stick to perving at women with big boobs and stay happy with my eggs!! 😂😂

Anyway some good things I will talk about this week! My baby shower! My mum arranged it all because I can’t deal with trying to organise my life anymore haha! I’ve arranged my hen do, wedding and getting the baby everything so I wasn’t going to be arranging that too! Plus  quite a few people let down last minute etc and that would have really stressed me out, so even though I wasn’t bothered at all on the day- it would have most probably put me in a bad mood! Friday I was already having a mental breakdown! That had to be the worst day of my life ever and I’m not even exaggerating!!! So I won’t even talk about it haha! The baby shower though couldn’t have gone better! My mum had took me to get my hair and makeup done whilst Mark had waited at home as we had balloons delivered, my mum had the most gorgeous cupcakes made and bought loads of decorations which when I got back home after being done up myself, Mark had set up the table!! Anyway, the baby got some gorgeous presents and loads of vouchers so me and Mark are going to go shopping today and spend them to get her some more bits!! She also bought a book for everyone to write in which we forgot about haha so I’ve stuck everyone’s cards in there and all the pictures I got, I’ve printed and stuck them in to make a scrapbook- I even kept some of the baby confetti and stuck that in! It will be a little keepsake for her when she’s older! I’m going to do one with all her scans and other bits in too.

So other than all the busy-ness going on, (which I really like because it’s making the weeks go quicker until she’s here) I also had a checkup at the midwife and had the bump measured to make sure she’s growing how she should be, she’s fine! I then had to have my bloods taken and urine checked and so far so good! My legs are starting to swell a little bit- they just feel really stiff now, especially when I’m trying to squat down to pick stuff up or feed the cats haha! Another glorious sign though and they also said it will get worse in this heat we’ve had which to be honest, doesn’t really surprise me because whenever I go on holiday anywhere really hot, my feet and hands swell really badly!!! You should have seen them in Thailand- I had to go in little shops walking round and just buy freezing cold anything to hold in my hands so they calmed down! 😂😂 My legs aren’t that bad at all by the way haha I just hope they don’t get that bad though!! Wish me luck by the way as I’m employing Mark to shave them for me later!! My legs are stupidly long and I’ve never been flexible. Whenever I’ve trained with a PT and they encourage me to reach my toes, I’m easily a good 50cm away from my feet! Shocking! But now this huge bump is in the way- I have no chance! 😂😂😂😂😂 I can’t wait to get back in the gym and train! I really want to get back into boxing, swimming and I want to give yoga a go so I can become a bit more flexible and I also definitely want to go to one of those ninja warrior courses as a laugh! I love watching that on telly and also, I’m obsessed with this girl on Instagram as her ninja skills really impress me!! Plus it looks fucking fun!!! Il probably break my ankle like but il give it a go!! 

I better go and start getting ready as Mark has already gone to the gym and I take bloody ages to make myself look half normal!! That bit hasn’t changed though!! 🤪 I swear, if I ever become rich, I’m hiring a hair and makeup artist to just sort me out everyday hahaha!! 

Just a couple from the baby shower for those who just follow my blog posts! 😊