Post Partum…

Right guys, first of all I’m going to say that I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a long time but it’s because I’ve been soooo busy becoming a new mum and I’ve been wanting to take my time on this post and give it my all. This is going to be my most honest and open blog post I’ve done and it’s about my post partum body journey. I’m literally pouring my heart, soul, every single doubt, the ups and the huge downs- everything is going into this. Now this isn’t going to be one of those, ‘My body gave me my baby so therefore I love it’ posts because yes, I love my baby more than absolutely anything and everything and I’m so glad that I actually became a mum but that doesn’t mean I have to love my mummy tummy!   

Something I heard ALL the time when I was pregnant from loads of different women was, ‘Oh it will drop right off you’, ‘Oh your naturally slim so you’ll bounce back’ and ‘Oh when you’ve had your baby, you’ll go right back to being yourself’….BULL FUCKING SHIT!!!! Honestly, I feel like it’s pregnancy reversed and the weight certainly hasn’t just ‘dropped off!’ I have had to work my absolute arse off to get back in shape! For some women, yes they may lose their weight straight away! Good for them! Same as they probably had a really easy pregnancy and a great labour and their little angel slept through from 5 weeks….🙄. I certainly (and not did my baby sleep through until she turned 4/5 months old lol) didn’t though like many others- this is my journey and my body. All of us are completely different but this is MY story on MY body- so here we go….

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So this was me before I was pregnant. I’ve always been a slim size 8 and I’m 5ft7 so I’m tall and lanky too lol! I definitely think this is a contributing factor as to why I had a struggle being pregnant! Especially because I was a HUGE! Not even joking! I actually can’t believe that this was me and I was actually about to find out I was pregnant here! I had no clue. Zero. I found out when I was 6 weeks pregnant and it was a complete shock as I was actually on the pill! Full explanation is at the start of my blog! One thing I will say is though- I’ve always fucked around with my hair but pink was a massive upkeep that I just didn’t have the time/patience for whilst pregnant as I was too busy throwing up and picking out tonsil stones 😂😂 so I went back to my natural colour but with that- I felt like I lost my identity. I know that sounds crazy but my life was completely about to change but so did I! 

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I was huge when I was pregnant. I’d put on a total of 5 stone whilst being so and not even remotely funny that I had a tiny baby!!! Seriously, my placenta was bigger than her! Now obviously you all knew the whole ins and outs of my horrible pregnancy, (if not then catch up from the beginning!) but I think you can see that I wasn’t exaggerating about being massive. I had a bump at 10 weeks. Even my first midwife said I looked like I was 24 weeks when I was only 14! This was two weeks before I popped too so I went even bigger! I hated people saying to me, ‘Oh your just all bump’, well yes, I was mainly….but my legs and face gained a lot also! No one ever told me I looked great or I was glowing because I bloody well wasn’t!! It was always how massive I was! Me and pregnancy just didn’t see eye to eye. Anyway, now you’ve seen how big I was, here’s the aftermath….

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I remember looking at my stomach and seeing how much smaller it looked once I’d given birth, but then it hit me! Why the hell do I still have this huge bump when there isn’t even a baby inside me anymore?! Now I was still ridiculously hormonal, crying at everything/nothing and being really sore during recovery  and irritable but I couldn’t get my head around why I still looked pregnant! I remember looking at myself and crying solidly for an hour and looking at old pictures thinking, ‘Omg! This is going to be me forever now!’ Honestly I was so upset. I couldn’t walk properly let alone do anything else! My hands were like balloons, especially my right hand due to me having a cannula in it for 2 days straight and constantly winding a reflux/colicky baby, but they and my feet were still swollen because of oedema. I had to take my engagement ring off because of how badly swollen my fingers were and I hated that as I felt that I couldn’t have that special closeness with Mark! I felt like I was a young, single mum when I went out on my own with her! All in my head obviously but I hated absolutely everything, apart from Brooke! She kept me sane!! Then I thought, ok! I can at least eat healthy and lose some of this water until I can exercise which they told me it would take 8-12 weeks for me to recover! Which honestly, felt like it was never coming!

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Looking at this picture now, I can see how much water I did actually lose but at the time- I honestly couldn’t tell you how fucking miserable and depressed I was. Nothing fit me apart from Marks joggers and even then, they were tight and a man size XL!!! I didn’t even brush my hair because I just couldn’t be bothered to look after myself! Honestly, this is the lowest I’d ever felt in my life and let me tell you, I’ve had a lot of shit to deal with. My tits were absolutely killing because they had started producing milk. I’d been eating nothing but healthy food and I thought, that’s it. This me forever now. I wanted to give up. Let me tell you, hormones, being sleep deprived and starting to feel depressed from feeling absolutely rotten and disgusting…HARD. Enough of that though! I was losing a lot of water, every 5 minutes I needed a wee- by the time I’d get downstairs after using the toilet, I’d have to go again! I was still sore and bleeding so I was still wearing massive pads along with maternity knickers!! My wee also had a right funny smell to it too! Just like when my waters broke which apparently was in my head according to the midwives?! Weird lol! I also still had some pregnancy symptoms- I had a massive tonsil stone make an appearance and I think I had around 5 haemorrhoids! The iron tablets I was on were making me poo and when I did it was black but my arse was on fire- But oh yeah- you just go right back to yourself when you have a baby…🙄😂. I just was at an all time low but I plodded on and through myself into motherhood and with what I was doing. Oh and I was back working now also!

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Well I feel like healthy eating is working because look, you can see how much I’d lost and pretty quickly! Not going to lie though, because I’d lost a lot of water and quickly, I’ve now got loads of stretch marks on my stomach and love handles. I was so upset by it as I’ve never had stretch marks and didn’t even have them in pregnancy so I was gutted! I was even googling about surgery to get rid of them at one stage!! I had been using bio oil through pregnancy and recovery, come to think of it- loads of other stuff but you know what- I became not overly bothered as I’ve got time to worry about that later! I was more bothered about losing the actual weight so I can fit in my wedding dress. My god though I hated my boobs at this point as they were so sore and they fucking ballooned!!!!! Mark kept calling them my, ‘fun bags’ but was he fuck allowed to have fun anywhere near them!!! Hahaha- I felt like I’d had a boob job and then I started panicking about them in my dress! Funny because I hated my boobs as a teen because of how small they were and wanted a boob job more than anything but by god I’m glad I didn’t do it now! By the way, I’m not calling anyone with big boobs at all because I think they are great on other women! Just not on me lol! Everytime I ate anything I had to pick out crumbs, my back hurt, everything I wore they would bulge out of….I hated them! I was dying for my size B’s to come back!!! At least I was out of the maternity knickers now too!!

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I think you can actually see by my face how much happier I look. My waist has come down and my boobs aren’t as big! I’m still not allowed to exercise but I’ve lost this just by healthy eating and weeing loads! When I say about me healthy eating by the way, I had been using a meal prep company as its healthy, convenient after having a baby and convenience- that’s the thing you need! I also had to eat healthy anyway due to becoming anaemic after losing so much blood after labour. If your from Manchester then I’ve been using Edibell Kitchen who I found on Instagram and I can highly recommend them as they are affordable but bloody tasty too! If your not local then just browse around for meal prep companies in your area, or if your confident enough to make your own healthy meals that you will stick to, then you could also do that! Do what is good for you. If your pregnant whilst reading this, then my advice would be to  cook now for yourself and freeze meals to heat up whilst you recover! I feel that’s an important tip! If your like me though-I physically wasn’t able to get up and cook for a good couple of weeks whilst recovering because of how sore I was and Mark can’t cook- so to me, this was the best option. I used them for weeks too as like I mentioned- convenience!! When you get 3 hours sleep a night for 4/5 months, I didn’t know what day it was and I’d eat at silly times but I only really ate when I was hungry. It’s important when you want to lose weight you find what is right for you because it’s got to be something you can upkeep! Now I’ve not been weighing myself so I don’t know how much I have actually lost but I don’t want to anyway! I just want to lose my weight in a healthy, sustainable way because that is the best way- not what a number says. 

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So my belly is starting to sag down which I hate. I compared it to the tongue belly that Adam Sandler has in Click! Seriously, I still can’t see my bits and I actually have to lift my roll up to shave! I will confess that I only did that for the first time this week as it was like Jumanji lol! I didn’t do it sooner because I was terrified I’d pull out my stitches or catch them! I never looked at my bits once after labour because of how Mark described it lol! He said it looked like Jurassic World gates opening the cheeky bastard! I felt like I had Frankenstein’s head down below anyway so yeah- I didn’t look lol! I actually went to a post natal yoga class with Brooke this week too which was pointless as I wasn’t allowed to actually do anything apart from pelvic floor exercises, (which by the way, no matter how sore you are- DO THEM! They keep you from smelling like Beryl at the nursing home as I could notice a smell coming from below and it was due to being leaky! I’m absolutely fine now I can assure you- but moral of the story- do them!!!) and Brooke just kicked off every time I tried to put her on a yoga mat- so I ended up just feeding her the entire time I was there! Haha diva! 

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Now I couldn’t take a picture the week before as this is when my bathroom and house decided to fall apart so I didn’t have access to a decent sized mirror! This was at my mums when we had to go round every night to use a shower/bath which was an absolute nightmare! I’ve started going for little walks and as much as I look better on this picture, I have got fake tan on and that hides all my lumps/bumps and the room is lit really well- so I wanted to show you from a different perspective….

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Now let me tell you…I fucking HATE this picture. If it wasn’t for me doing this blog then it would have been removed from the face of the earth. Mark took it before we went to see 50 Cent which was dreadful as he did the entire show in 40 mins and it took us 2 hours to get home! Now when I saw this, I literally wanted to take off all my makeup, get back into Marks joggers and get into bed to cry. Instead I got shit faced and smoked a few fags because I felt fucking horrendous. I tend to do this before I go out anyway and always have, because of my anxiety. I have never felt that I’m ‘pretty’ or that I’m good enough, which is why I wear a lot of makeup etc- It stems from being badly bullied in high school and always being compared to others- you know, someone always had to be better than you…🙄. One thing I never had to worry about though was my pre pregnancy body! I could eat what I wanted, I never gained weight, i didn’t really exercise- I was lazy….so seeing this- I couldn’t have anything positive to think or say about myself. Since then I’ve used this picture as motivation because I never want to look or feel this way about myself ever again. I felt like the whole night was awful and everything went wrong because I looked fat and disgusting. Ridiculous to think that EVER, but that is how I felt. I especially didn’t want to feel like this on my wedding day so I pulled my finger out and quickly. 

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So I had my 8 week check and they told me I was good to go, so I’m back in the gym and feel like I can really get on track now. Now the day before the picture was taken, I was actually in hospital having a general anaesthetic due to my wisdom tooth being removed. It actually became infected- which I found ironic as that’s why it had to be removed! 🙄 Having it out and being infected had definitely been more painful than labour. I had to be put on strong antibiotics- I could barely eat, drink or talk! But it didn’t stop me! I certainly underestimated it! I’m glad it’s out now though as it’s fine and I know il never have any problems with it ever again! Anyway, I’ve still been going to the gym, even in agony and living off 3 hours sleep a night (so no excuse ladies haha!) but all I’ve been doing in the gym to start off is a fast walk on the treadmill followed by a few sit ups a time so I can get my core stronger again. I’m am actually a tough bitch really underneath the hormones! I will push myself to extreme if I want something hard enough and I wanted to feel good. 

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I’m actually quite impressed here as I did give in this week and I ate some naughty treats because of my whole tooth situation but Mark ordered us a Domino’s and it gave me diarrhoea so that’s probably why I got away with it! I poo’d it all out haha! Isn’t it funny really when you don’t eat any junk for a long time- it shows you how shit it actually makes you feel! Goes to show how shit you’d feel eating it all the time! My house is still an absolute mess- so I had to use my wardrobe in Brooke’s room to get this snap. Anyway, as well as doing cardio and abs in the gym, I’ve started to do some all over body workouts with light weights this week to try and get my body stronger again and to burn more calories. To be honest- I haven’t even been counting calories, I’ve just been watching what I graze on in between meals as I’m a bugger for snacking! It’s been hard but I will start getting used to it.

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I was feeling a lot happier this week! I’m starting to see my shape again and even though I’ve still got a lot of weight to lose, I’m feeling it’s much more achievable- I even shared this picture on my Instagram story as I was proud of myself!…Except- I gave in and I weighed myself at my mums and saw I was 11 stone so then I was really fucked off and upset  that after all this effort of eating healthy and working my arse off in the gym, all to lose 7 pounds in 4 weeks (the last time I got weighed was at the doctors at my 8 week check and they told me I was 11 stone, 7 pounds)….then I knew I was being ridiculous!! 7 pounds is amazing! Thing is I was 8 stone pre pregnancy so the thought of having to lose 3 stone knocked me sick but I’m absolutely determined to do this shit if it kills me! I hate feeling miserable and having absolutely no confidence at all and I’m NOT feeling that after this awful year and on my wedding day! No way. Honestly this is a tough bloody battle and I’m constantly abusing myself everyday but I feel like it will be the end of the era once I’ve got myself back!

 

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I’m so glad that I’ve been taking photos as I daren’t weigh myself again and this way I can actually see results rather than focus on a mindless number. Again I was so happy as the night I took this, (usually I can look bloated at night but I’d just been in the gym) I couldn’t believe it when I saw myself! I just wanted to say also that I’m not promoting sunbeds in anyway at all but I didn’t get to enjoy summer at ALL this year because the heat made me swell even more and I got bad migraines from the heat but with it getting closer to the wedding, I don’t want to wear fake tan as it will ruin my wedding dress which I want to keep! I’m not a saint and I think by reading this blog, you all know that haha! But there’s worse things out there than using a sunbed. Least I’m not out sniffing cocaine! 

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I’ve found this week HARD! I went out for my friends birthday and tried literally everything in my wardrobe on and nothing would fit me! I feel like I’m smaller than what I actually am until I try something on! I did manage to find something to wear but I just refuse to buy clothes whilst I’m losing weight! Then that’s adding to feeling depressed because I feel horrible, frumpy and grumpy! I felt so self conscious whilst I was out that I wasn’t even being myself! I felt really out of place! I tried to feel normal but I just didn’t! I don’t know if anyone even noticed but I felt like I stood out and not for a good reason! With that, I dragged myself swimming the next day and I was moaning to Mark that I looked really fat in my costume- it was bulging out of places that it really shouldn’t bulge out from! Mark just put me in perspective and said, ‘Would you rather feel conscious now or on your wedding day?’ I knew he was right so off I went! I did an aqua aerobic class before it and my costume ended up like Borat’s monokini- it was going in every nook and cranny, (actually rhymes with fanny 😂😂) but I proper went for it so if you see my bits on YouTube anywhere then let me know haha!! I had to take Brooke to the health visitors which was a mile walk there and a mile back as well as the gym a couple of times- weighed myself there out of interest and according to the gym scales- I weigh 10st 13 which I was so fucking angry and upset about. One fucking pound in 3 weeks?! As I’m sat here writing this I’m in bed crying my eyes out. I’m so fucking depressed/angry that all my fucking hard work and effort has been for absolutely fuck all. I’m fucking devastated. I literally haven’t eaten any shit in 5 weeks- not had any treats and turned them away, even when I really wanted them! Honestly it’s a massive kick in the teeth and I feel like I’m not getting where I want to be. I’m going to have to try something else or step it up a knotch…Also my house is now finished and you have no idea how much I appreciate my bathroom back!!!!

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I’ve decided I really don’t care what the scales said. Even if I did lose a pound- at least I haven’t gained any!!! Truth be told, I’ve probably gained muscle through going to the gym and the other thing is, I looked properly at the piece of paper which I was ashamed about  at the time, but the machine said I was 5ft 6 and I’m not- I’m 5ft 7! See what I mean! I did want to use my mums again just out of interest in what hers would say but you know what- I just don’t care! I’m not doing it again. All that happens is I see the number and cry. I mean cry to! These photos are enough proof that I’ve done well and lost weight and I actually don’t care how much I weigh- I just want to fit in my dress. I went out with my best friend for food and I thought- fuck it! I’m getting what I want from the menu as I’m not starving myself and making myself ill and you know what, I’ve not been out for a meal for ages in fear of getting bigger!! I promise you all I haven’t got an eating disorder as I’m aware I probably sound like I do right now but I can’t help how I feel and my hormones are all over the place. I’ve started tracking exactly what I’m having to eat on the app; MyFitnessPal and I’m going to step up my workout intensity’s because truth be told- I probably can push myself more now. I’ll keep you updated on the app and let you know how I find it after a week to let you know if it’s any good! 

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God this week I’ve been so up and down in terms of emotions! I don’t know if it’s my dreaded period (hence why I’ve got my shorts on) causing it- which is also hilarious as loads of women also told me they get better when you have a baby…well mine are no different apart from being longer and heavier! Sometimes I look at myself and think, ‘Yes, I’m getting back, I’m doing so well’ then other times I’m doubting myself- just feel grim and horrible! I have actually dropped a dress size now so I’m beginning to fit in a size 10 which I was absolutely buzzing about but it’s just my stomach I fucking hate! I have bought a waist trainer because I know they are good at keeping your tummy in and it’s also good for back posture- anyway I got a L on eBay and I can’t even fasten one clip! I refuse to fucking buy a XL- it’s just not happening. I even started to be stupid and look at alternatives I could try, e.g, liposuction, tummy tuck, slimming tablets, laxatives….. then I’m like, ‘What the hell are you doing?!’ You will do this! My heads just been everywhere- I even forgot about my smear test and missed it!!! Doesn’t help that Brooke had her jabs this week and she was so ill afterwards bless her so I only trained 4 times this week, otherwise I’d have done more. I’m terrified I won’t fit in my dress- let alone what I’m going to do about wearing a bikini?!?! I won’t be able to- and then I start crying. Why is this so much harder than I thought!!! I’m sick of everyone telling me I look good because I know I don’t and I can’t stand people just trying to be nice. I am fully aware that I probably sound like an absolute freak about this but I’m literally writing exactly how I feel down because not only does it make me feel better, I want to show you that we all have down days! It’s normal! 

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Ok I want to start this off with how ridiculous I must have sounded last week. I’m absolutely so up and down with my body and I’m only putting this pressure to lose weight on myself because of the wedding. So many people have told me I look great for having a baby 4 months ago and literally everyone I know has told me to calm down. Me personally- I just can’t. I’ve been full of a cold this week and I’ve gone to the gym every night! I’m really into working out now as I’m putting all my depression and anger into my workouts and personally for me I find it working and I feel a million times better for it because I’m no longer down about myself because when I’m in the gym, I’m doing something to sort myself out. I’ve not done anything different in terms of diet however I did notice on the my fitness pal app (which by the way, I really rate, especially if you do want to track your calories as it tells you everything and if you go over your daily intake!!!!) that my diet seemed to be mainly carb based so I’m working on lowering that slightly and getting more protein in me. As it’s been Black Friday, I got myself a few tubs of protein so I’m going to start doing what I used to do and have two shakes a day along with healthy snacks and a healthy meal for tea. I shall talk about it next week to let you know how I find it. Looking in the mirror though I’m feeling good and positive. I also shared this on my Instagram as I was proud! Yes I’ve still got weight to shift but I’m getting my shape back. As you can see I’ve taken this photo at night as well because if I took it first thing in the morning- I’d look even slimmer but you know me- I’m keeping it real. Good thing is- I have 8 weeks still to go!! 

Disclaimer: Ok I haven’t been taking regular photos and nor have I weighed myself because I decided to worry less and just live life. I came to realise that it’s ridiculous to be worrying so much about my weight when I have just had a baby. I’m stopping putting as much pressure on myself as it’s silly. Don’t get me wrong I’ve still been training 4 times a week as I enjoy it now and I’m still eating healthy- I’ve started taking supplements which I will write a list of at the end. I’ve actually noticed far more results by letting go of this obsession and not only that- I’ve been feeling much happier. 

Firstly- this is from a different perspective again. This was the difference in 4 weeks from roughly 18 weeks after labour to 19 week.  I met up with a PT who has given me lots of nutritional advice and got me on track with workouts. Can you believe these are results in 4 weeks!!!! Isn’t it crazy how much you can do in 1 month! At first I was really upset because of how big I still look (isn’t it funny the difference in angles too! My selfies don’t show exactly how big I am!) but when I properly looked- look how much better my tummy is!! I’ve lost at least 1cm to 2cm’s off in total of each area when I sent her across my measurements. I have been having a shake in the morning, one at lunch or a healthy lunch depending on how hungry I am, and a healthy tea with plenty of healthy snacks during the day like nuts and fruit etc! My tea is lots of fish or meat with low carb like quinoa, sweet potato etc and buckets of vegetables. I have also been taking supplements which I will list below. The PT I worked with is called Karen Austin and she runs a place called Topaz Fitness. I did her online program and met with her once and by god she nearly killed me lol! Honestly it was actually terrible how unfit I am at circuits even though I’ve been training!! It’s good to be pushed now and again, doing different things, to challenge my body as I don’t want my body getting too used to the exercises I do as I want results! I’ve been doing body pump classes about 2/3 times a week, moving more in the day by walking etc, swimming once a week and some home exercises when Brooke sleeps. So every time I need to go upstairs, I run up them with high knees or mountain climb up them, then I either do some burpees at the top step or push-ups! Also please excuse the fact I look wonky and the fact I left my socks on lol! I’d just been to the gym and was dying to get the pictures out the way as I was nervous to see them!! I blame the lighting and Mark’s photography for why I look wonky lol! I can assure you I’m not!! 

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Before I reveal what’s underneath….let me tell you….I’m incredibly happy! I think final bits of wedding stress has made me lose a bit of extra weight lol!! I’m back in a size 8!!!!!

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Now I don’t have toned abs and nor do I have my old thigh gap…..I have a few lumps, bumps and scars…..but I feel great- AND in a bikini for holiday!!! When I read back through the start of this post, I can’t believe how far I’ve come. I’ve hated myself, doubted myself and worst of all, I gave up on myself!!! Many a day I didn’t want to get dressed, go out and do anything, even go out which is not like me! I didn’t even brush my hair some days or wore any makeup! I still have more to lose until I’m back to pre pregnancy weight and I do still need to work on my tummy but I will carry on eating well and training- I just really wanted to share this blog post with you all because….there were times where I felt BAD. I honestly wish you could see how bad! Signing into social media and seeing famous women who had babies in a similar time frame to myself, looking incredible and seeing them with abs within months….it was heartbreaking!! I mean even now I don’t look like that and I’ve worked my arse off!!!!! Thing is plain and simple: we are all different. Some women find pregnancy a breeze, some (like myself) had a terrible time! Some have a great labour, others terrible! Some women get back in shape, some don’t. Some women breastfeed which can contribute to weight loss, some (again like myself) didn’t! There is no point in comparing yourself to others because we are all unique. Cliche bullshit I know but I had to keep telling myself this! Plus these celebrities have teams of people to help them get ready, take photos for them, photoshop, get surgery, have PT’s and meal preps, etc etc. It’s not the real world. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not bashing anybody because I tell you, if I had money, I’d be going straight to whoever made Megan Fox look how she does, I’d be there!!!!! But I’m not rich nor am I in a reality show. I’m in the real world and I’ve worked my arse off and the products below are genuinely helped and no fake promoting necessary. I wanted to stress this!!!!! 

So here is a list of supplements I used and rated! This is not me telling you to take them without checking they are right for you- this is just what I found extremely helpful for ME. These things were also taken with caution and alongside a good diet and lots of exercise. No daddy diets or gimmicks either!!! Now do NOT assume that you can rely on supplements to give you a slim figure- they are just there to enhance your hard work. 

  1. Aloe Vera colon cleanse tablets from Holland and Barrett. These have made me go to the toilet comfortably every day without the horrible cramps or diarrhoea! Much safer than laxatives and really work! Trust me but coming from someone who really suffers with bowel issues- these are a game changer or worth a try at least!
  2. Protein. Ive been using Cute Nutrition strawberry flavour whey protein and it’s gorgeous tasting! Like I said, when I monitored my diet to see where I was going wrong- I was consuming more carbs than protein so all I did was flip it round and that’s when I started to notice  quicker results! I also rate JST Jodie shakes as they also taste great! The blueberry muffin meal replacement shake is 😍😍😍!! 
  3. Skinny juice by Cute Nutrition. Not going to lie- it’s nice at first but then it wears you down hahaha! It has dandelion root in it which helps get rid of water weight which is perfect after having a baby because that is what is mainly in your body- water! You can just buy capsules of dandelion root but this drink has other weight loss ingredients in it and I did find it extremely helpful! Just beware using, you will piss SO much lol! 
  4. Pharmanex green tea capsules. I don’t like green tea and I’ll be honest- drinking water, coffee, protein shakes and skinny juice- it was all getting too much just drinking lots of different crap and remembering to have it all! So I found the capsules to be easier! They also have the equivalent to 6 cups in anyway! You can get them anywhere but my friend sells the ones I have so if your interested, her Instagram is @kirstyannemarr just send her a message about them and she will tell you all the info! 
  5. Collagen tablets. Collagen is amazing for your skin and keeps everything tight. I used to swear by the drinks but I hadn’t taken them for years and they have gone expensive so I picked up some capsules from Tesco. I thought they might be good for my tummy skin!! I’ve only really just started using them so can’t really give you effective results yet!
  6. Waist trainer. Towards these last few weeks until the wedding I’ve worn one religiously to try and keep my belly a little flatter. Not going to lie, uncomfortable BUT you can tell the difference. I wouldn’t wear one if I wasn’t getting married- apart from in the gym! I think when you train; it’s easy to forget to keep your core tight when your trying to focus on other things whereas when you wear a waist trainer, it’s kept in automatically!! 
  7. I’m also not going to lie- I did try some fat burners but they made me feel poorly like sick and jittery which terrified me- so I sacked them off. If you are going to take them then make sure they are safe as they can be extremely dangerous!!!!!!!! 

Now I’m probably going to face some form of backlash in some way or another for this blog post for trying to lose weight quickly and moaning so much…..so I’m going to end this chapter by having a usual rant. I am aware that in some stages in this post that I probably sound like a raving lunatic, sounding obsessed with getting back in shape after just having a baby…… Firstly, my hormones were everywhere. Secondly, my wedding is coming up. Honestly- I genuinely think by going to the gym and training helped me- not only just to make me feel good and to fit in my wedding dress….but I genuinely believe that if I hadn’t have trained- I would have probably ended up with post natal depression… But seriously I  cannot stress enough that I have only put this much pressure on myself because of my wedding otherwise I would have spent a bit more time relaxing and recovering properly, but if you know me personally- you know I get easily bored and I have to be constantly doing something. I always need stimulating whether it’s mentally or physically! So I would have eventually put myself through this but I definitely wouldn’t have been as hard on myself. Even on my honeymoon il be running around theme parks with my husband (ahhh!) and friends! I can’t just lazy on a beach 24/7 as I get bored!! I have been pushed to my limits this past year but I’ve conquered it. I have totally changed as a person and I don’t mean just because I’m now a mum. I enjoy fitness now and that will become part of my lifestyle. I have made new friends through training, I feel better about myself and have more energy! It’s also given me some ‘me time’ because you do the same thing day in, day out to get your little one into routine! It can get very repetitive- so to get out and do something for myself that makes me feel better is great! I have still got 2 weeks until the wedding to go as well so I’m going to see if I can lose a little bit more in that time but I’m honestly not stressing about it! I’m happy! 

Thankyou for all being a part of my journey and if you still want me to do posts on parenting or anything else then please let me know!!! I’ve loved sharing everything with you all! 

 

 

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